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Honestly...I am. I’m pretty darn depressed right now. I went on a little family vacation, and I only went so I could see my cousins I only see once or twice a year. Pretty much, I didn’t get to see them. I was mad at my parents for dragging me up a five hour car drive and not getting to see my cousins, and they kinda blew up on me. I admitted I have been depressed since I was in 5th grade (I’m ending 7th now). And my mom didn’t ducking believe me.
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4 years agoI then told her later I was just being an idiot and I wasn’t depressed because I don’t want to talk to her anymore. And my mom is a psychologist. I feel really alone now, abandoned. I can’t tell my family anything. They were what started my depression, but I still felt like they loved me. Now, I don’t think they do, and I don’t think they want me. I get yelled at a good deal. I don’t want to be with them anymore. They’re anti-emo, and I’m not sure about their opinions on LGBTQ either.
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4 years agoAs an emo, and someone currently questioning (but most likely asexual), I don’t feel like I belong in my house. I don’t feel safe there anymore. But, I’m stuck here for now. I wish I was normal and didn’t have a bunch of problems. I think they don’t want me because they have to take a burden of an ADHD teen with severe anxiety. And, who they don’t believe is depressed. I don’t cry much, but yesterday, I broke down. I don’t want to be here anymore. The only thing keeping me is music.
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4 years agoI am really grateful for Gerard, Frank, Mikey, Ray, Brendon, Ryan, Dallon, Jon, Spencer, Pete, Patrick, Andy, Joe, Josh, Tyler, Remington, Emerson, Sebastian, Vic, Jaime, Mike, Tony, Awsten, Geoff, Otto, but especially Kellin Quinn. Sleeping With Sirens is what helps me the most, and MCR. But Kellin had family issues as well, and the music he makes helps me know I’m not the only one. I’m not the only Stray.
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4 years ago@🥰FANDOMS ARE EVERYTHING 🥰 Thanks. Honestly, I don’t want help either. I just needed to get that out of myself...and I don’t feel comfortable doing it in real life. A good deal of my friends are pretty terrible people...I don’t even call them friends, I guess. If the two actual friends hear, the others are bound to.
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4 years ago@🥰FANDOMS ARE EVERYTHING 🥰 I’m sorry about your family too.
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4 years ago@🥰FANDOMS ARE EVERYTHING 🥰 It’s alright...I just want to start my life over again, I guess. And my one friend that I actually like hanging out with is going to high school...I’m only 13, so I can’t do much now, but my mom refuses to pay for college far away, or let me look at them. In my county, we start looking at colleges in 6th grade, which I think is kind of early, but I want to get as far away from D. C. as I can, I don’t plan on coming back. I tried to tell my mom how I felt...and she just
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4 years agosaid, “*insert what you think my name possibly is in here*, you’re not depressed.”
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4 years ago@🥰FANDOMS ARE EVERYTHING 🥰 Emily is close :) You can call me Ellie, that’s what I go by on social media. It’s not my real name, but I like Ellie a lot better than my actual name. I don’t really have anything of value, except for my record player (which I am not parting with, ever lol). I think my grandparents may have set something up for me, so hopefully, that would be able to pay for a far away college, or maybe I could get a scholarship. I do get to take a break at summer camp.
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4 years agoI go to a camp for three weeks, and my mom misses me, she claims, but I know she likes just having my brother around. I used to be a perfect little girl, but I’ve changed. My brother is the star, good at sports, good grades, lots of good friends...I’d love to stay for eternity at Camp.
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4 years agoThat’s cool @🥰FANDOMS ARE EVERYTHING 🥰 I hope they can, too, well, one of my grandmas can. The other is the one that usually causes me to go start crying in a corner. Not abusive...she just expects me to be the perfect child, and expects me to do everything (as in vacuum her entire house when I’m there and pretty much clean her entire house) while my perfect brother gets to sit around and play video games. She also expects me to be a perfect religious student. I’m atheist (technically)
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4 years agoAnd she makes me wear dresses and all that, but puts EVERY SINGLE STEREOTYPE ON ME. Oh, you’re a girl, so you like pink. Oh, you’re a girl, so you’ll be really obedient. Oh, you’re a girl, so you like wearing dresses.
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4 years ago@🥰FANDOMS ARE EVERYTHING 🥰 I am technically the...7th wheel? My group is made of seven, and there are three outcasts. My best friend and another friend of mine are the other two...and I’m kinda the outcast of the outcasts. I’m really reckless, and I need to be doing something at all times. I can’t sit still, and I have anxiety that interferes with my schooling. I have a “listening problem” according to my mom because I can’t follow orders. I don’t want to take orders from her. She didn’t believe
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4 years agoMe on things, I don’t want to be her servant.
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4 years ago@🥰FANDOMS ARE EVERYTHING 🥰 I think little siblings aren’t weak, and they should be able to do things too. At my grandmas, I was doing the dishes and wiping the floor at age 7. My brother is 8 and playing video games.
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4 years ago@🥰FANDOMS ARE EVERYTHING 🥰 Yeah...my dad is okay to me...he’s verbally abusive, but he does care, a little. He favors my brother, because all I do according to him is “eat, sleep, and go on screens.” I don’t have a single game on my phone. Besides from Recolor. It’s all music.
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4 years ago@🥰FANDOMS ARE EVERYTHING 🥰 I’m sorry...I guess my mom probably cares a little...sometimes, too much. Won’t let me go to a concert with a 22 year old. I’m hoping to meet one of my idols soon, because I am going to his concert on Friday. He and the band he used to be in helped me a lot.
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4 years ago@🥰FANDOMS ARE EVERYTHING 🥰 Yeah, I doubt I’ll get to meet him, but if I don’t, I’m gonna try to dm him on instagram. My goal is to meet one of my idols in my lifetime, and I’m hoping to meet Frank Iero on Friday. I also really want to go to a Warped Tour thing and see Kellin Quinn and Sleeping With Sirens. He came from a rough family too...literally the only think I’ve been listening to since yesterday is The Strays by Sleeping With Sirens
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4 years ago@🥰FANDOMS ARE EVERYTHING 🥰 Yeah, I think I want to meet him the most. That's where I get the whole Strays concept from. Thanks so much for talking with me. I have to go now, but I hope we can talk again another time. :)
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4 years agoI can relate 100% I can’t tell my family anything either. No one really knows me. I’m an emo too but I’m not allowed to be. I struggle with self hate. And my parents are against LGBTQ even though my sister is bi (they don’t know) and idk what I am yet. I don’t even know where I’d be without music. MCR saved my life. You are definitely not alone even if it feels like it
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